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posting genting trip…

there are a lot of things that happen in genting..

i was having mense.. hence my temper is very back. plus my mood swing is super terrible..

thn being said by mt relative for not being the best child od my mother…as we didn’t put her as priorty.. making mi super upset..

but i’m so glad that baby is always by my side during this up and down… despite the fact that i vent myy temper at him.. he is still there for mi… trying to stat reason for mi and explaining in all his might… just hoping that i will understand……

lenting mi his shoulder to cry when i’m realli crying like no ppl business.. all this little and little things.. do let mi find back the feeling i lost for him..  but i felt that i have become a weak and dependent person.. i hope that i can be that strong wenya again.. but can i?????

baby jus left my hse.. he came over my hse… as i reali miss mi a lots.. reali felt baby put in a lot of effort for mi.. he came all the way down to find mi despite being very tired from the genting trip, my staying over at his hse, his post camp and dancing lesson..

where can i find such a great bf ever…. but i’m so sad when he said that he feel disgusting for the tone i use to desribe Eileen.. but he nv thot of the fact that i’m jus showing him the real feeling i have..

i feel that i’m being very truthful to show it to him instead of jus hidding behind of him and do all those small actions…

i did tok to her in a very nice and chen xin despite of my feeling.. and baby is angry over mi for using that disgusting tone.. i feel reali sad as he think mi as this type of ppl…

but i try to coax him a little.. he seem to be ok for awhile…

but when he is abt to leave.. he was unhappy abt the way i untied his cable wire(the cable that for his lappy). i don’t understand but was unable to ask.. as i was on the phone with aishah… thn baby left…

abt 15 min later.. received a call from baby.. asking if he had left his wallet at my place.. i replied him yes when i turn over and saw the wallet still lying nicely on my hse floor.. and baby is somewhere near orchard le.. he voice was so pek chei.. my first thot was i have to send the wallet down to him.. so he can pay his cab fee… my second thot is baby is getting more angry now….

i’m sry that i was over my phone toking with aishah(for the ward chalet) and didn’t check if baby took everything earlier on…  suddenly i have the feeling it all my fault.. and all the if only i nv ask him to come.. if only i nv tok over the phone.. if only i check the place for him.. if only.. if only.. if only and more…

now.. aftering knowing that his brother will be there hlping him to pay the taxi fair… i wan to send his wallet over to him early in the morning the coming morning.. i know that he will be very sian and hopeless if he didn’t have his wallet with him……….

i hope that i can be a better time keeper for baby… be the best hse keeper.. be the most caring soul mate…. be his left and right hands…. i don’t want to be his hinder

wenya have to grow up in her mentally… can’t always reply on baby all the time..

love is sth that is hard to catch.. when the feeling is gone. it will be gone.. no point trying to keep it with u….

so wenya.. u have learn to let go and be less zhi zhuo abt it….